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Well that passage above could not be more fitting to how I feel today on my 4 year anniversary of sobriety. This week I have really been correlating 2 thoughts 💭20 years ago I graduated high school with so many thoughts and ambitions of what I thought life would be like. Pretty much that cookie cutter perfect life in like 5 years. Ya know this scenario…. Graduate college. Get married. Have a few kids and of course my dogs. Living in a 3 story house with the white picket fence. Hahaha Now reflecting my life it took 20 years to gain the confidence that I have all that I am suppose to have and couldn’t be more blessed. The passage specifically states to stay sober we tell our story. Our journey is not a cookie cutter life. It’s a journey that some of us take longer to get to but I got there with Faith, believe I want change, AA, love from all of you all, and I wanted the future to be bright. Resistance and fear of being happy was my biggest battle. Especially when it came to my weight loss. I was in denial on how sad I was inside and even afraid of confidence. Today I know I carry the heart of Jesus (love thy neighbor) and the rest falls into place. I’m happy. I still wanna loose like 60 more pounds but discipline is also a part of my lifestyle. I stay sober with discipline of knowing I don’t want to loose what I have. I keep loosing weigh because it does feel good to not carry all the baggage in my body. Not to mention keeping up with a toddler is pretty sweet too. I only want 1 kid today and am at complete peace about it. I love my one story ranch house. My fence could be painted white but that’s another project to get to one day. lol I did graduate college already and stoped having bad dreams that I didn’t really graduate. Yeah I know weird accruing nightmare that I never really shared out loud tell now. I am married and nothing about marriage is easy but I love growing at it. I love how much my husband loves to be near me and Ally all the time. I love how we are learning what our me time looks like. My big thing is Wednesday night is my women AA meeting and important I take it for me. Discipline again tells me I’m Chelsea an alcoholic so I need to go. Do I think I need it today nope but I do so I keep going. The old way of thinking is gone for the most part I can’t do life alone. The gym I make time after work. I know my kid needs a healthy Mom so giving up an hour with her after work for the gym is ok. Well today I see a big difference and can’t wait to see the next 4 and than the next 4 and so fourth 😁😁😁😁
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